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Hater keep on hating
Tuesday, March 8, 2022 | March 08, 2022 | 0 comments
To my haters: I wouldn't be able to stand where I am now if it weren't for you. If you believe I have already forgiven you and forgotten about the past, you are mistaken. I'm willing to forgive you, but to forget something so heinous? No way, not even in my future life. I felt so emberassing being insulted over and over again, and you simply responded, "I was immature." Again, you don't want to admit it, but you blame who you were at the time. Do you even realise maturity is a choice? Why is it that other people are able to treat me nicely but you are unable to? Isn't it true that you merely want to be noticed? Don't blame maturity for your immaturity. I know I may seem stuck in the past, but the past makes me stronger. The past taught me not to be kind when not necessary, and the past too taught me not to trust. I was so kind and easy to trust because I thought if I was kind, you guys would treat me better or at least stop insulting me in every way. You guys accuse me of stealing money after you stole my RM500 glasses and even hung my bag in front of the class. Even though I have the evidence, nobody trusts me. I have to pay that person RM700, but thank God he was kind. It took me several years to pay because I was not working. I wonder if human beings will forget such an incident? That's just a small part of it. Do you want me to remind you of every single thing? Because I remember, but you're not because you're the bullies! I believe in kifarah, thanks to Allah. It is known as karma in other religions. Karma begins to pursue them one by one after SPM. How does that make you feel? Yes, I have grudges against each and every one of you, but I ultimately realise that I am not at peace. I found peace after forgiving you all, but I can't stop karma from pursuing you down. You've known the consequences since you were children, but you don't care because you believe they won't happen if I forgive you. Isn't it amusing? Although forgiven, retribution is still awaiting. Finally, I am grateful for your dislikes since they help me to grow as a person. I'm able to read people easily because of you guys as well. Everything that transpired taught me a lot of things that I didn't realise at first. I am glad for because, at the very least, when I slip and fall again, all those memories will pursue me to ensure that I will stand again to show the world what I am capable of achieving. Continue to despise me and disseminate your hatred like a COVID-19, because I'm not afraid like I used to be. I'm standing tall with my head held high, and I'm spreading my wings and following my aspirations and goals without flinching.
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